Hey all! So, we’re almost half-way through January, and I’ve been working really hard at my January goals of going 100% vegan and exercising five times per week. All was going swimmingly…until today.
I just don’t know what happened. I felt fine all day at work, and was actually looking forward to the gym and a good, lengthy sweat session. However, on my walk there, my stomach began to have really intense, sharp pains. Not wanting to give up my gym session, I tried to brush off the pain and continued on my way. I changed, put my hair up, and popped myself onto a cardio machine with the hope that the pain was just a cramp that would wear off. Well, needless to say, it didn’t, and I had to quit after five minutes.
At first, I was really down on myself for skipping out on a gym session. I felt disappointed, frustrated, annoyed, and even angry at myself for cutting my workout way short, and beat myself up over it on my home. Then, I realized…I was being a mean girl to myself. Rather than being gentle with myself and taking pride in the fact that I had listened to my body and done the right thing by stopping my workout, I was swept up in a whirlwind of hateful self-talk. Crazy, right? Uhhh, yeah. Extremely crazy.
Once I had realized that these thoughts were permeating my brain, I immediately shut them down. If I’m going to make 2016 the year that I fell in love with myself, then I wasn’t off to a very good start with this type of thought process. So, as tempting as it was to continue beating myself up over cutting a workout short, I made the choice to treat myself kindly instead. I got home, took a warm shower, brewed some tea, and indulged in some ‘Vanderpump Rules.’ My body clearly needed a break, and in giving it one, I’ll be that much more prepared to kick ass tomorrow. I did not quit on my goals today; I merely noticed what my body was screaming out to me and acted accordingly.
While I know this is a small and insignificant (in a “grand scheme of things” sort of way) moment, it was a huge victory for me. I made the conscious choice to love myself, listen to what I needed, and encourage myself that tomorrow I’ll be stronger than ever.